You Win Some, You Lose Some

So what do you do when you can't get that ONE dress out of your head?  Even though I know it is completely wrong for me, I keep wanting this one dress.  I can picture every little detail surrounding it, down to which side I want my hair parted on.

Oh, you want to see it?  The more I look at it, the worse I feel.  Not to mention the fact that I can't even remotely fit in a size 16 anymore.  And I'm not one of those crazy brides who thinks I can lose 8 dress sizes before a wedding.  A 16 is completely doable.

And this is why I need girl friends.  To tell me that I can find another dress I like just as much as this one.  That this one won't look good on me.  Blah blah blah.  Instead, I just keep showing it to Nick, hoping that one day he'll hate it and I will too.  But it has little tiny pearls all over it!

The good news is that it's on clearance on David's Bridal's website and it will probably sell out anyway.  Wait...that's bad news!  But I'm too practical to justify purchasing a dress that I don't fit in (yet).  Or am I?

I've been checking out a few different venues in Denver for le wedding.  One in particular is Mercury Cafe.  I've seen a lot of cute wedding/reception photos from within that place, and it's very cute on the inside!  I'm just having a hard time putting all the proverbial pieces together and I wish I had more people here to help me out.  I know my mom feels bad because she never had a real wedding, just that courthouse jazz, so I don't like throwing too much on her.  

Oh!  And good things are coming around.  I still can't mention them yet, but when I can, I will!

Pity Party: Invitation Accepted

I have been sleeping worse than I have in a very long time.  I have some good things that are bubbling under the surface right now, but I don't want to talk about them just yet for fear of jinxing them.  But these dreams...ugh.  They are ridiculous!  They're hateful and horrible.  I actually dreamed that I was murdered last night and you know, I don't dream of dying very often.  I asked Nick why the hell I'm dreaming about being murdered and he responded that he'd forgotten his lunch at home.  This is my life.

There isn't much new on the wedding front.  Nick and I talked about colors and we've mutually decided that we both hate yellow and no pink is allowed.  He's not a pink fan.  Also, that we don't hate orange, but it's not going to work.  Yes, I had even considered orange.  I'm still really liking apple green.  I found a more clover green bridesmaid dress for a really good price online, and if it matches Cynthia's measurements, I plan to get it for her.  It would be cute even with a wrap, because she will probably want one, if I can find a good color, of course.

But all of this matters to no one, because everyone just wants to know when when WHEN.  I don't KNOW when.  I don't have the money for a wedding right now and I don't know when I will.  Yes, I want to get married next year.  If I could, I'd get married right now.  I'm in love, people.  I think most people forget that we aren't "living the dream" here in Colorado.  It's like, I have bills to pay.  Rent to pay.  Everything to pay.  And saving just isn't going to happen for another couple weeks, after I bounce back from paying off a medical credit card.  Ugh!

So.  I plan on doing my own makeup (which is not inconceivable, considering I am a makeup artist).  Honestly, I could even make my own cake.  If I buy a couple decorating books, some new recipes, and pans just for the occasion, I could do it.  My dress will be cheap, but still pretty.  Shoes will be the hardest find for me, really.  If I want to be really happy, I'll go barefoot.  I can make my own decorations.  I want a very small ceremony.  I can't do my own hair, but I'm sure I can figure something out.  Ugh.  But these things still cost money and money isn't something I'm rolling in.

Enough with my pity party, though.  So think happy thoughts and maybe he and I will get inspired and be able to make this whole thing come together.

Dresses!

This post is all about dresses.  I love dresses!  Most of my life I envisioned myself in a red satin mermaid-style strapless dress.  I wanted to have a bouquet of calla lilies and a beautiful veil/fascinator combo.  Everything would be perfect.  But you know...it's come to my attention that nothing is perfect.  Things that I love may not come to be.  More and more I am considering just finding a pretty dress and whisking Nick away somewhere so that we can get married and I won't have to take anyone's opinions into account.

But honestly, I'm open to people's opinions all the same.  If I weren't, I wouldn't be putting myself and my future wedding out here in cyberspace for all to see.  So without further ado...

The Dress:

This is the dress that I'm pretty sure I'm in love with.  It's the red satin strapless beauty I've always dreamed of.  It's also hella cheap.  Like, with shipping and custom measurements, only about $150 cheap.  Most of me really, really wants me to get this dress.  I can afford it myself and I know that Haley can make fantastic accessories for me to wear with it.  

Then.  Well, then...there's the little part of me...that really likes this dress.  A tiny little part of me wants a traditional white wedding dress.  I love the Greek goddess look of it and the crystals on the straps.  There's a gorgeous cowl-neck across the back and let's face it, the draping is stellar.  I would look damn good in this dress and I really like it too.  Plus, I can wear it with no shoes and no one would know the difference!

The Reception Dress:

This is a dress I'm considering for the reception.  It's got twisty straps so that you can make it look different when you play with it.  That was a really inarticulate description of a pretty, spring-y dress.

I like the artsy-ness of this one with the brushstrokes and the pickups at the hem.  It's a little more casual, but colorful and fun.

I think this is a really classic, pretty dress.  I have no idea what I'll look like with a peplum on my dress, but it is pretty adorable.  

This is classy, pretty, and great for hourglass figures like mine.  Very classic too.  Hmm.

The Bridesmaid Dresses:

This has been my favorite by far.  I love the green apple shade, I love the pleating...the neckline...I love everything about it.

I think the peplum on this is adorable, but the neckline isn't for everyone.  It depends on who I pick as bridesmaids, I guess.  If I pick bridesmaids at all.  Honestly, it's so hard to pick from the girls that I love.  And I don't want any of them to have to wear this pink shade.  Ha!

The third possible bridesmaid dress is this little number.  Love the color.  Love the pleating detail.  I think this would look good on most girls...

So by all means, give me your opinions on these.  If you love them, hate them, or even have suggestions for me, please, let me know!  I don't have any girl friends here and I'd really love someone to just say, hey, these are my opinions.  I've been gathering lots of wedding-related ideas on Pinterest.com and I'll be posting snapshots like these for this blog, including wedding color palettes, food ideas, accessories, etc.  So, if anyone is reading this, thanks for reading!